how do i let you go

it's a rainy day today.
of course it is,
these melancholic feelings
always surface on the rainy
days.

you see,
the thing is,
i thought i was over you.
and maybe i am.
i have thought through
our time together.
from the first time you sat down for the interview,
through the cute messages,
and delayed replies.
to the last conversation in the car,
when you told me you weren't ready for a relationship.
we ended our time with a hug
goodbye.

and yet you still walk through my thoughts most days.
why?
i feel like i have closure from this experience,
ready to move forward.
yet, so many dumb things remind me of you.

i don't know how to let go,
because you were the first guy who held
everything i wanted
in a person.

how am i supposed to let go,
when i don't know if i'll find a person like you?