dusty friendships.

i have friends, sure.
but they are all really
busy.

it is a cracker of a day today.
i almost went to the beach
to watch the sunset.
no-one was available to join me.

"next time, for sure!" she said.
"I would've been keen, but I've got something on", he replied.
i decided not to go.
i actually don't mind spending time alone.
but sunsets lose some of their magic
when you have no-one
to share them with.

a piece of me thinks being in a relationship
will solve this problem
the problem that is dusty friendships-
too busy to maintain their freshness.
however, i wouldn't know the answer to that,
because i've never been in a relationship.

if i was 36, married and with a family,
i do not think i would mind dusty friendships so much.
however, i am young- with a head full of dreams,
a heart full of curiosity,
and few commitments.
so shouldn't i be experiencing life with people right now?

instead i will probably stay home doing school work tonight.
it's friday night.
Lord, please send me some new, fun friends.
i just want to experience an abundant life,
i don't mind sharing it with others.